22 Aug 09

i m usually those when someone say cannot do this, the person needs to explain to me why. If it is reasonable, i will listen.
dun like those who will say, "i ask u do jiu do. dun ask further". Haha! Eg. my mum. And sometimes, he also like that. i hate it.
Of cos, the person must also do the same to him/her or others.
If not, i will feel unhappy and get rebellious.
If is u, u wun feel unhappy meh?

Seem that some things, as long as the person can explain till it is ok to do it or the person himself/herself tink is ok, then it is alright

Eg.
- cannot shop during 7th month but can do online shopping
- at first say so late le, dun go to dark and near sea area but in the end, still allow
- cannot buy house & rent out to earn extra $ cos if wait, can buy bigger house. can even quarrel or yell.
In the end, ownself go look at centros, said its worthy to buy now, future can earn lots from it. when asked tot u say cannot, den tell me see only ma.
BUT if in the first place cannot buy, den why bother to even go see

It's all making me feel that certain thgs is ur own theory
yes, yi fang wan yi ma. i know.
i am okay with that
but definitely NOT okay when today can say "cannot" to me, den suddenly ownself do it or say "okay" to another person
and tell me the reason is cos.. tis tis .. n tat tat....
which is actually the SAME !!!

23 Aug 09

had a slight unhappiness yesterday
i was sleeping very well
he woke me up to do something that i need to do
after that, i cannot get to sleep. especially with the loud thundering sound
i said to him"now i cannot sleep le la. next time dun anyhow wake me up"
he is unhappy and went out to sleep.
perhaps tis also explains his attitude regarding the following matter..
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He told me yesterday "tmr morning i go soccer, u go facial. when i back, bath then we go back ur house k".
i have been staying his house since thursday ah.
my brother even facebook chat w me n say "very long never see u alrdy ah"

He went for his soccer n told me "next time if u cant sleep, dun yell at me". he usually came back around 12+pm but today came back at 2+pm.

me: "wat time going my house?"
him: "huh? not going.."
me: "i already told my family we are going back."
him: "haiz.. i fetch u back later."
me: "u not going?"
him: "i not feelin well"

i then unhappy. i cannot let him wait n didn't inform him. but he can let me wait n dun inform me?
perhaps he simply forgotten we are going back my house today..
n perhaps partly because what happen last night..

he kept asking me to eat porridge. I said dun wan. not hungry. he said "dun bullshit, from morning till now didnt eat, u not hungry?" i said dun wan.
and he said "later go home urself"

i can foresee our married life...
if we quarrel and i want to go home on that day, he will ask me go home myself...
i come by myself and leave by myself..

Posted by jasmine at 11:23 PM